Why I Need to Let You Go

WHY I NEED TO LET YOU GO

ALL DAY AT WORK TODAY THE IMAGE THAT STAYED IN MY HEAD WAS THE ONE WHEN YOU WERE STARING OVER MY SHOULDER LOOKING AT MY FACEBOOK PAGE WHILE I WAS MAKING THOSE CHANGES. I HAVE HURT YOU SO MANY TIMES AND TODAY I REALIZED THAT I HAVE TO STOP DOING YOU LIKE THIS BECAUSE IT IS NOT HEALTHY FOR YOU. OVER THE 12 YEARS I HAVE KNOWN YOU, I HAVE DONE NOTHING BUT HURT YOU TIME AFTER TIME AND YOU HAVE DONE NOTHING BUT PUT IT IN THE PAST AND LOVE ME EVEN MORE MOVING FORWARD. YOU HAVE CAUGHT ME BEING UNFAITHFUL IN EVERYWAY POSSIBLE WHILE WE WERE DATING AND AFTER WE GOT MARRIED BUT YOU ALWAYS STAYED BY MY SIDE. ANY OTHER MAN WITH ANY SENSE WOULD HAVE BY NOW UNDERSTOOD THE VLESSING THAT GOD HAS GIVEN HIM AND STOPPED DOING THE THINGS THAT I HAVE BEEN DOING AND I HAVE TRIED SO MAY TIMES BUT EVENTUALLY I JUST MESS UP AGAIN. I DON’T KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME OR IF I CAN EVENTUALLY ONE DAY BE THE HUSBAND THAT I SHOULD BE TO YOU.

I REALIZED TODAY AFTER THINKING ABOUT IT, THAT WHEN I WAS GONE THOSE PAST TWO WEEKS AFTER THE INCIDENT HAPPENNED WITH MY FACEBOOK PAGE, THAT YOU HAD MOVED ONAND YOU WERE HAPPY AND CONTENT IF I HAD COME HOME AND SAID IT WAS OVER. THIS ALSO MADE ME REALIZE THAT IF THIS INCIDENT HAD HAPPENNED AND I WENT OVER SEAS FOR A YEAR THEN YOU WOULD HAVE THE TIME AND SEPARATION TO END OUR MARRIAGE AND MOVE ON. YOU MAY SAY THAT YOU WOULD NOT BUT WHEN I WAS IN COLUMBUS DOING ALL THOSE THINGS AND WASN’T AROUND EVERYDAY, YOU HAD STARTED MOVING ON THEN WITH JAMES AND IF I WOULD HAVE STAYED LONGER THEN IT WOULD HAVE BEEN OVER BETWEEN US BECAUSE WE WERE NOT MARRIED. I COULD SEE YOUR STRENGTH WHEN YOU CAME TO PICK ME UP FROM THE AIRPORT AND I HAVE SEEN IT EVERYDAY BUT YOU WILL NOT JUST TELL ME TO LEAVE. MY CLOTHES ARE STILL IN THE FRONT ROOM AND EVERYDAY WHEN YOU WASH ANY OF MY CLOTHES YOU JUST STACK THEM ON MY STUFF IN THE FRONT ROOM. THIS MORNING I LOOKED AT MY THINGS IN THAT FRONT ROOM FOR A LONG TIME AND I KNEW THAT I WOULD HAVE...