Pressure

"We ask 18-year-olds to make huge decisions about their career and financial future, when a month ago they had to ask to go to the bathroom."

I was scrolling through my twitter timeline when I first saw this. It made me think for a minute. How is it that we are expected to make enormous life defining decisions at a stage when life is so trivial?

This is a feeling mostly everyone can relate to. Most of us end up choosing a major out of peer pressure or simply because we have run out of time. We proceed to exploring possible career options which leads to wasted money, which leads to debt. All in a desperate effort to discover yourself. I can definitely relate, because I am one of them.

All these questions have been plaguing me for months ever since beginning college. I truly have never felt as unproductive as I do now. I always thought I would have my life together or at least and idea of what to do by now. Maybe I am overthinking, but I have a feeling I am not progressing as much as I had planned. I know I could be doing something better, I just don’t know exactly what aspect of my life to alter. I don't know if I am wasting time pursuing a degree that may not be for me. But what if it is? What if it is the best decision of my life? The doubt kills me either way. I convince myself that once I know what direction to aim next, these questions will finally be silenced.

I consider myself a very ambitious person. I have a vision for myself. I don't know what I want to do yet, but I know the person I want to be. I want to be a strong, independent, driven, and ultimately successful individual. I want to be my own boss. I just don’t want to have to settle. I can’t stand the thought of conforming to an average lifestyle, when I am capable of so much more. Everyone I look up to, were once in my position. If they never believed in themselves, then they would never know what they could have accomplished. So I insist on aiming higher, and pursuing my ambitions one...