Abba Prayer

Zichen Zhang

RELS 100

Professor Spina

Abba Prayer

Our Father, I am sincerely confessing you my sin. It has been a trouble for a long time. I am struggling and lost in endless overwhelm. I don’t like my parents. I thought I could have a better education from my parents. They were always denying me. Whatever I do, as long as they don’t think it is right, they will stop me. Now I am student, who has no income and family belonging, I have to rely on them. However, they always think they are doing the right things for me. They don’t understand what I like or what I can risk my life for. It seems that I have a good relationship with them; that’s all because I am in U.S.A. and they are in China. I want to be independent; I want to do what I like, such as dancing and drum sets. But they think those things are useless, which cannot bring me money. In my personal opinion, money is important but it is totally not everything of my life. I just want to do the things that I am interested in and get the benefits I deserved. My parents, they don’t understand this. All they want is I can make big money, and have good position of job so it is not waste to send me here, United States. They never said they were wrong even if they did. All I got from my parents since I was born is money. I envy my friends can have their parents pick them up after school. I envy those people who can hold their parents hands and shopping or play a basketball game. When my friends in dancing group had a performance their parents would come and say “good job” after the show. What I got from my parents is “those things are useless, stop doing those and get a good grade.” In my deepest side of my heart, I hate them. I think I deserve better. I know they are my parents and they raised me up. My Father, tell me what should I do. By Father’s name, Amen.

When I was praying, I felt like I was talking with my friend who can help me with darkness. I also reviewed the story I told and made some change for me.