The Reality

Change Your Thoughts and You Will Change Your World

“Let your faith be bigger than your fear”

The first thing that came to my mind as I walked by her locker, numbered 55, on the second floor, in front of my Math class in UBC was her gorgeous appearance. Her smooth babies skin face, her modestly smirk on her lips and the way she stared at me as a look going through my body shivering upon my skin. My friend thought I was weird, but she definitely was sure that I was the limited edition. If she were going to live one hundred years, I would live a hundred years minus one, so that I would not live even one day without her. She was my sunshine lighting up my world like nobody else. If I was a flower she watered my roots to keep me alive and fresh. She was everything for me, my air to breath and reason to smile.

On the first page of our story, the future seemed so bright; however, I, an idiot, who thought that she is not different from others tried to be with me only on my own purposes. It is painful to admit that you are no longer mine. How miserable I was.

Before you, I saw girls as a thing to express men’s feelings. I flirted, cheated and used girls only to get a benefit from them. You were the one, who totally changed me. If I was a player, you were the coach. Now I face the reality, and I wonder how important you were for me. You never let me to get things easily. You have never been available as a shadow at night. You were as white as snow white clean, and dark as soot, actually even darker. Also, you were sweeter than the sweetest sugar, and were as bitter as grief. Additionally, you were very obedient, very trusting, and were willing to bet. You were longer than the life whether short instantly, were loud as a shout and whisper in my ear.

My reality of fear was loss of you. I was not afraid to love, I was just afraid of not being loved back. I was not afraid of the people around me, I was just afraid of rejection. I was not afraid to let you go. I was just...