Incredible Discomfort

Incredible discomfort, the body suppressed,

An altered ego, my other, depressed.

Unknown instructions, relentless road,

im self destructing, helpless mode.

Outbursts of emotions, not good to the eye

Alternative action...curl up and die.

Im unable to see, why with life I can’t cope,

That eternal triangle, the end of a rope.

At night the dreams come, destruction of life,

Death is the struggle, the pain and the strife.

That feeling of running, with no where to go,

These are some of the feelings, you’ll never know.

I suppress my demons, but the thoughts still remain.

Internal combustion, my ever lasting pain.

Help is my plea, yet these words, you don’t hear,

When will this end, im living in fear.

Not fear of the living, not fear of the dead,

Only fear of the thoughts, trapped in my head.

My life’s being destroyed; I’m no longer free,

I cant beleive what this has done to me.

Not out for revenge, I’m no bodies fool,

One hundred percent, I gave them my all.

I’m living an a nightmare, i see no end to this hell,

I want my life back, I need to be well.

Control is no option; it’s all down to fate,

Please help me return, before it’s too late.

See the mouth move, but the words you can’t hear,

It’s like screaming in pain, you’re so unaware.

Alone in this world, comprehension is void,

No wonder I’m angry, pent up, and annoyed.

Remorse for my actions, hit hard on the soul,

Relentless searching, never reaching my goal.

Swap places with me, from my feet to my head,

Feel what its like, alive but yet dead.

Discontinued association, emotions depleted,

In this war I have lost, completely defeated.

Understanding is absent, in death I’ll prevail,

An easy way out, without, it can’t fail.

Adverse discomfort, causes unwanted thought,

Complicated reactions, leaves this lifeline taut.

Constructive conclusion, assistance required,

Derogative emotions, from my heart have been fired.

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