Sunday

Sexual Self-Analysis

Who and what were the most important childhood influences for your sexual development

I choose these questions because I felt that these relate more to me than all the others.

As I begin to write about my sexual self I would I have to say that the most important influences were my older brother, cousins, and my friends. Everybody I was around was having sex at a young age. All the talk was about how many girls they were having sex with and how sex was so good. This made me want to experience the same feeling, even though I wasn’t ready. I was pressured into losing my virginity. My brothers and peers were saying damn you haven’t had sex yet. Being a virgin was something to be embarrassed about. This made me feel a type a way, I wanted to fit in with the people I was hanging around so I finally had sex. I lost my virginity to a girl I didn’t even know. The girl didn’t even know I was a virgin. I used to watch porn all the time, so copied all the moves I learned from watching. I used to think I was going to lose it to someone I cared about but that didn’t last long. After that day I started to think about sex even more, my mind and my body wanted sex daily. As I grew older sex was easy to get. Getting girls wasn’t a problem because I realized how easy it was. My friends and I even sometimes compete to see how many girls we can have sex with.

I used to always day dream about having sex with girls I see, but in college the day dreaming turned into fantasies. I keep my composure though. Growing up my parents really didn’t talk about things like this because they are conservative. So I had to learn from my own experiences. In middle school I found out what masturbation was I use to do it multiple times and day I couldn’t control the feeling, I just had to do it. Today at 24 I love to masturbate it gives me relief and I’m comfortable doing it. Nowadays my past sexual relations have been with women older than me. Older...