Bittersweet Dream

Bittersweet Dream

(Topic: No. 9)

“The worst mistake that anyone can make is being too afraid to make one.” Why we people are afraid of making mistakes or of taking reasonable risks? Is it because of humiliation, or are we just simple coward of what will be the outcome of every situation that we’ll be facing? Life always has its ups and downs; you can’t avoid rejection, but you can always dream. We all do have dreams, and we are struggling to reach any of them. Being on a stage, doing the thing that I’ve been dreaming of, and with a single spotlight on me, is what I dreamt the most. I never dream of anything for myself, but just to have that; even just once.

When I was young, I used to sing, or do any performance on stage in my former school. I was so happy that I felt like a star shinning above that people love to look at. My mentors or teachers helped me to live life in that precious moment where I’m living on a fairytale dream. They do a lot of effort and encouragement to take away the fears that I’ve always been thinking of. Even nuns, in my former school encouraged me a lot when I used to perform way back then, when I was a little girl. It was the most precious moment that God gave me. The girl, who was not afraid of taking any reasonable risks and mistakes for rejection purposes. That WAS me.

To fast track the story, all of the sudden that fairytale dream moment was all gone. It became a reality nightmare. People in my present had that black magic word; rejection. I guess that just how my dream ends. Maybe this IS me and this WILL be me.