Becoming a Mother

Becoming a Mother

I will never forget the day I found out I was becoming a mother. I knew my life was about to change forever.

The beginning of this long journey began in the middle of spring. I went to a dollar general store and bought the cheapest pregnancy test I could find, thinking there was no way I could be pregnant. In complete denial, I went back to my house with no fear of what might happen. I calmly went in the bathroom and took the pregnancy test. Within a few minutes, my whole body was hot and my skin tone had turned bright red. I began crying and thinking how am I going to do this. I’m too young. I won’t be a good mother. Then my fiancé came in and asked me if I was okay. He looked at the test, smiled, and said “We’re having a baby”. He tried to calm me down, knowing how scared I was, it was quite impossible.

Throughout the night I was thinking of ways of how I could tell my mom and all my family. My fiancé seemed to be perfectly fine. I think this was because he has had a child before. Time went by and I had kept this secret to myself, without telling any of my family. Well of all days, April first had arrived. I texted my mom in total fear of her response, and said “I have to tell you something”. She asked me what was it that I had to tell her, and I replied “I’m pregnant”. She asked me if it was a joke or was I serious. I told her I was serious and she acted as if she was excited.

For the next month I was looking at every possible website that had baby clothes, or decorations. I had been obsessing over every single baby girl outfit I had seen. The bows with polka dots, with stripes, with shapes, or bows with multiple colors. I wanted it all. I thought all of the shoes were so adorable. I had saved tons of outfits from different websites in shopping carts. Little did I know, I was having a boy. I found out I was having a boy in June. From that point on I had to completely change my mindset and start looking for boy clothes. I figured out that...